So where to start…..
This is my first blog in a very long time and will be doing more either daily or once a week, some will be about my mental health and how I am dealing with the current situations,
Those who know me well will know I can close up and keep myself to myself and find it hard to talk to others about how I fell,
Yes, I have been struggling and fell very stressed with all of this lockdown, I am trying to keep myself busy but even things like crafting which is some I love doing is a struggle either with concentration or can’t focus on it,
When I have been looking online via social media or news outlets there are so many people not following the guidelines, I know there are situations where you may need to think outside the box, but my main concern is I’m putting faith in friends family and general public that they have not got covid-19 there are so many just ignoring the rules which are mostly legal, and doing what they want because they feel safe and healthy,
I’m glad if you do feel well but remember you could be a carrier; do you really want to put others at risk?
So much is going through my head and trying to stop myself going down a path that affects my mental health and get into a place where it’s hard to come out off.
I am glad I have certain people in my life where I can talk to them when in contact or each day it does help and is good to know people care, if I’m not as chatty or make contact it does not mean I’m not ignoring you or not interested, it just means I’m struggling and find it hard to open up, I get the questions how are you? I just close up and say yeah, I’m fine thanks and change the subject, it can be hard, and I know a lot out there are dealing with this in different ways, but cannot help feeling the way I do,
Some see me and think I’m ok, I’m good at hiding how I really feel so please bear with me and help me get through this,
I miss being around my friends and yes even miss my work colleagues as we do have a good working relation together and care for each other a lot which I miss all the interactions with others,
Well I did only want to do a short one to start of but always good to get things of my chest.
Until next time stay safe and please follow the rule and think of others as well as yourself.
If you have any thoughts or suggestions for future blogs etc let me know
Big social distancing lockdown hugs.
xx
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